The software’s birthed into the world,
Disc space empty, memory wiped.
Just waiting for those google docs,
The Netflix films and searches typed.
They seem so so bland, so insignificant,
But every picture, every document,
Remembered, burnt onto the motherboard,
Forming something of a monument.
Permanent and always can be traced.
Computers don’t forget the past.
Algorithms form the patterns
That push them forward to the last.
I have always seen the human brain as a computer. I think that we are born with a clean hard drive and everything that happens to us after that forms our behaviours and shapes the person we become. I believe that childhood trauma can really have a big impact on how we behave in the future, as adults. If we have suffered something horrific as a young child, I think that it can cause us to act out in a negative way as an adult. And we don’t have a clue why because it’s all subconscious. This is why I think that therapy is so helpful when you don’t understand why you are behaving in a certain way. There is an underlying reason underneath it all.
If you are struggling with a horrible pattern that is running your life, then I urge you to try therapy because once you know what might be causing it, it’s far easier to start working on stopping it. We can’t control our feelings but once you know where they come from it’s far easier too control how we act on those feelings.