My hands are red raw and starting to bleed
And yet the shoreline is no closer to me.
I wish that I’d let you into my boat,
Before I began to paddle my way out.
Now that I know the way this could end
It feels like stupidity, what I have done.
If I had just been a little less cocky,
If I’d taken a break,
It could all have been different.
But I chose to row out, without any help,
Without any person to take off the strain.
And now I am floundering,
I’ll never get back.
I wish I had listened, but now it’s too late.
I feel like I’ve reached a point of burn out and I know that I am the only person to blame. I have been signed off work this week because I just buckled under the pressure. However, looking back, I have done all the overtime that has been pushed my way and I haven’t had a holiday since August. I didn’t even realise this and it’s just all caught up with me.
I actually feel a bit stupid now because I can see exactly why I’ve ended up in the situation that I have. I wish that I had asked for help and maybe said ‘no’ to the odd bit of overtime.
For now, I feel a little bit like I’m stranded out there in a rowing boat. I desperately want to get back to the shore but I’ve completely run out of energy and the tide is against me.
If you can feel yourself slipping, do ask for help, even if it’s just a day or two off. I think that most managers would be happier with you if you did that rather than need weeks off to nurse yourself back to health.
Burnout is a really horrible thing to go through because it’s so preventable and you feel so helpless. I hope that you are all staying strong while we are powering through these horrible winter months. Don’t push too hard and make sure to give yourself a little bit of TLC every now and then.
Love and Light