It’s for scientific purposes, I promise

I’m still finding my feet,

A teen in a grown woman’s body.

I find myself watching reality TV

In an attempt to learn what to do.


Some people turn up their noses

But I actually need those things.

A road map to help me through

A world that I once drowned out.

I have found since I stopped drinking that I’ve begun to watch a tonne of reality shows. I find that I’m absolutely fascinated by them and I couldn’t quite put my finger on why. I almost felt a bit embarrassed about the fact that I adored Love Island.

However, I think I now know what it is that keeps me hooked. I think that it’s because I’ve been drinking heavily for my entire adult life and now that I’m only three years out of it, I’m still trying to learn all of the things that everyone else learnt during their twenties.

Romantic relationships are completely beyond me because I’m emotionally about fifteen years old. So Love Island is a treasure trove of ‘information’ for me. I get to see all these people fall in love and break up all in fast forward.

You may all be laughing at me and being all judgey, but I promise, I’m only watching it for scientific purposes.

Much Love

Rachel xx

8 thoughts on “It’s for scientific purposes, I promise

  1. ThisWeirdChick'sBlog

    Congratulations on your sobriety! πŸ˜€ Nothing wrong with learning whatever you need to make your life happy. Doesn’t matter where you get your information as long as it helps you grow as a person. Soup operas are a treasure trove of information as well. Wishing you lots of luck in connecting your dots. Oh and don’t worry what others think. They’re not walking in your shoes.

  2. JanBeek

    Sure, sure!! Ah, I love your sense of humor – and your vulnerability. Is it real? Or is this a story made up for our entertainment?

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