for when you have unfinished business

Looking happy when I DID finish that 100 mile run!!!

It stares its ugly glare

Back at me in hot

And angry tones.

I wish that I

Could turn away

But guilt,

It keeps me there

Until it’s all zipped up.

I hate leaving things unfinished. But life is not perfect and there are some things that I either cannot finish or choose not to finish. And so these projects eat me up with guilt.

Today I finished reading a book that I absolutely hated from start to finish. I found the writing horrible and the story line too cheesy. But the guilt over not finishing it was so strong that I ploughed on anyway.

It just got me thinking how much time I must waste doing things that I don’t even like because I’ve started them and then felt bad about the idea of leaving them incomplete.

If I could make a change to my personality, I would be more carefree and care less about what the world thinks of me. If I’m really hating something I should allow myself to throw in the towel. Life is really short and it seems a waste to spend it on things I don’t enjoy.

That said, this same quality/ flaw (however you want to see it) has meant that I have stuck things out that have made me incredibly proud. I’ve swum the English Channel and run 100 mile ultra marathons. I can safely say that I did not enjoy the second half of those but I persevered. And I’m so glad that I did because those achievements are now with me forever.

I’d be really interested to know how others feel about giving up on projects. Does it eat you up with guilt or are you quite happy to put a book down after five chapters? I say that you need to balance things up which is sometimes really hard. How much do you want to get to the end and is it really worth it? Sometimes it’s a yes and sometimes it’s a no.

Much Love

Rachel xx

14 thoughts on “for when you have unfinished business

  1. crispina kemp

    I always felt bad when I quit on a project. Until I realised that was conditioning had from my mother. Now I’ve shifted that guilty voice to where it belongs (childhood memories) I find I complete most projects that I’ve begun. But that’s because those projects are the ones that interest me. As to reading a book through to the end. No. Not if it’s not holding my interest. I’d rather drop it and make room for another.
    Does that answer?

      1. crispina kemp

        Nah. No one knows how long they will live, why waste what we’ve going on a book that’s not doing it for you?
        Though I will say that if it’s a Kindle, and you’ve had it on Kindle Unlimited, be nice to the author and thumb it through to the end… cos the writer gets royalties on how many pages turned. (A recent discovery, being one such writer πŸ™‚ )

  2. PPR

    I think it’s okay to give in things that we don’t like, as you say, life’s too short! πŸ™‚

  3. joyfulstephanie

    You ran 100 miles!!!!!!!! You’re my hero!!! My goal is to run a half-marathon this upcoming October!!! 100 miles!!!!!! I can’t even imagine!! But, you proved, it you imagine, it can be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! πŸƒπŸΌβ€β™€οΈπŸŽ‰πŸƒπŸΌβ€β™€οΈπŸŽ‰πŸƒπŸΌβ€β™€οΈβœ¨

      1. joyfulstephanie

        I get that shuffle!!!! I too use the term running loosely, but I use it because that is my goal – to increase my pace to a nice easy run!! Thank you for your supportive cheers!! πŸ™πŸ»β€οΈπŸŒΌπŸ€ΈπŸΌβ€β™€οΈπŸƒπŸΌβ€β™€οΈ Are you still running?

  4. Greg Dennison

    Depends on what it is. I have plenty of video games from the 80s and 90s that I never finished, and it doesn’t really eat me up inside or anything. But I also have a long-term ongoing creative project that has pretty much fallen by the wayside over the last several years, and now that all my creative energy is going to DLTDGB I don’t know if I’ll ever do anything what that again. I’ve been doing that other project off and on since 1993, it deserves a proper ending at least.

  5. potatosandwich

    Firstly, well done on the swimming and running, that’s quite awesome and you look much the conqueror in that image!
    Two weeks back I started reading a book called ‘Game Changers’, it started off well but now I won’t be going back to me. I just didn’t like the context or writing style. The book is about how you can make changes in your lifestyle and the author himself interviewed over 125 multi successful people to get their secret. But I feel that those people only hit this lifestyle when they hit the big time. Just didn’t do it for me.

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