Fumbling in oppressive dark
I’m never sure that light was ever there.
I thought that eyes could see in this
But now I know the deep impossibility,
The pure ridiculousness
At thinking I could understand
Without the words, the books to seep
My brain in til it boils with fierce
And ever present flies on fire
That flit about inside my skull,
Their flame lit bodies shining light
Through newly opened eyes.
I feel really uneducated and that is one feeling that I really don’t enjoy. There are terrible things going on in the US and I want to comment but I feel that my woeful understanding of the situation prevents me from saying anything.
I can say that what I saw done to George Floyd is disgusting and the protests are moving and scary at the same time. However, I have no real understanding of the history behind all of the unrest and it makes me feel uneasy about saying anything.
I saw that people on social media were posting a black slate and it was being criticised as being too passive, or it was somehow muting another section of society. But when you’re scared of saying something wrong, is it better to just stay quiet?
I feel like I’m in a really awkward position because I understand that something needs to be done but I don’t know enough to say what. And that’s the crux of this post: what do you say or do, when you haven’t got the education to understand everything that is going on?
It has shown me that I have a lot to learn about the world and I wonder if other people feel as uncomfortable as I do when they are fumbling around in the darkness? And what issues do I start to learn about first? There are so many bad things going on in the world that I could read for a lifetime and still only scratch the surface.
I think that with all the shit that we are seeing in the news we owe it to ourselves to be more aware so that we can take an active stand in life. However, we always need to be educated because wading in when you don’t know the facts can be a recipe for disaster.
I hope that other people are looking around at the moment and feeling as uncomfortable as I am. I hope that these events are encouraging you to no longer live in darkness. It’s not a good place to be and not caring and living in ignorance is not really acceptable right now.
Take care out there and love at every opportunity that you get.