moments to change by

They happen so quietly they they could go unnoticed

But those that are vigilant catch them at once

Like butterflies in nets over wildflower fields,

We stare at those wings in jars on strings

And wonder what patterns could possibly mean.

Only the wise or those that have waited

Can pull out the truth and make a huge difference

In lives that are touched by the messages sent

From the skies up above

And the powers that rule.

I’m really intrigued as to whether other people believe that God speaks to us through other people? Even if you are not religious, do you believe that there are higher powers or spirits that might be directing you?

And I’m not talking about huge, life changing events that push you onto another course. I’m talking about the little conversations that you have, that could go unnoticed but something flags it up in your psyche and makes you think that there might be something more there.

One of my most memorable experiences of this was when I was struggling with drink. One night I was really hammered and I was sitting in bed watching Netflix on my tablet. I was feeling completely sorry for myself so I was watching a really depressing documentary to match my mood.

The documentary was called Cristina and it was about a fit and healthy young woman who got cancer and it charted her journey through treatment. I was slowly drifting into another blackout when it happened.

It was near the end of the film and I was crying as I watched when Cristina came on screen and delivered a very moving monologue. She was near the end of her life and knew that death was coming. She was bald and so it was impossible not to feel drawn into her piercing blue eyes.

Into the camera she said that life needs to be cherished and then she said ‘wake up’. I think she clicked her fingers as she said it and I felt like she was a hypnotist pulling me out of a trance. As far as I was concerned, she was speaking directly to me as she told me to stop wasting my life.

I fell asleep but when I woke up all I could think about were her blue eyes and her strict instruction for me to ‘wake up’. I got sober shortly after and I still, to this day, see those eyes and hear those angry words whenever I feel like I’m caving in to the power of drink.

I could just be reading into it all too much. I was desperate at the time that I watched the movie and scared that I would die if I kept drinking so it follows that I might cling to her words. But I do believe that something more powerful was at work that night.

And I’ve had countless other experiences where the words coming out of somebody’s mouth seems so profound that they can’t possibly understand how powerful they are.

I’m sure that some of you think that it’s all a load of woo-woo, but I’d like to think that other people get some comfort from knowing that a loving God is speaking to us in times of pain, encouraging us to go on to happier lives.

Much Love

Rachel xx

8 thoughts on “moments to change by

  1. potatosandwich

    I’m totally with you on this, that’s all I can say and that’s from my personal experience. If it reaches your eyes and makes a difference, then who is anyone else to dispute it.

  2. crispina kemp

    I believe we are connected by spirit (take that as you will), and that spirit responds to our wants, our needs, to deliver via others. And to us it seems like the world has moved to deliver us a message. And hey, it has.

  3. Greg Dennison

    That definitely could have been God. In December 2011, I had a dream about the last remaining cat from my childhood (who died in 2006 in real life but was alive, although barely hanging on and in obvious pain, in my dream) which I am convinced was God telling me to break up with my girlfriend (because our relationship was barely hanging on much like the cat). I did, and I’m better off without her.

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