itching for the old life

It starts a lot like gentle irritation

Gnawing at the skin that crawls

With the urge for something new

Or old, as the case may be.

This stagnant air that wraps around

Our lives in scarves of quiet sadness,

It needs to move, to blow in new directions.

It will, I know. Just give it time,

For now just rifle through the images

Of olden days and happy times,

They’re coming back on that Eastern wind, I’m sure.

I have quite liked lockdown because I’m an introvert. I don’t really like going to social gatherings so that has been no hardship. And then I work in a school and a shop so I was required to work in both. This meant I had something to keep me occupied and I didn’t have the money worries that so many others have had.

However, there are a few things that I’m starting to miss so I can understand why people are so keen to get back to their old lives. And for me, it’s swimming.

I hadn’t even been swimming that much in the last few years but as pools are slowly starting to reopen, the local news channels have been visiting pools that I have raced in all throughout my childhood. It’s bringing back so many fond memories and making me think I might get my cozzie back on.

I hope that everyone else is coping in lockdown and I hope that you are looking forward to things reopening. I wonder whether other people will restart hobbies and sports that they haven’t done for a while because of everything that has happened?

It would be nice to know that is the case. Something good has to come of this awful mess the world has gotten itself into.

Much Love

Rachel xx

PS I don’t normally put many photos of me on the blog but the one above is of me while I was training to swim the English Channel about eight years ago. Those were really happy times and I would love to have those back.

7 thoughts on “itching for the old life

  1. clivebennett796

    I’m a bit of a water babe too! Having almost drowned when I was 6 coz I couldn’t swim i soon learnt and went on to do long distance swimming – but I never got to do the Channel – just a dream. Well done!

  2. Greg Dennison

    Things just keep getting worse here. Most of what I spend my spare time doing is shut down and will be for a long time. And there is a lot of uncertainty about my job at the moment. I hate this. I hate my life.

    1. patientandkindlove

      I’m so sorry that things are going so badly for you. I think that we are all hoping and praying that things turn around soon. I know that people who thrive off being around others must have found this impossibly hard x

      1. Greg Dennison

        I’m a social introvert. I need balance between time to myself and time with others. I also get easily overwhelmed with changes in the routine. This is why I’m struggling so much, especially given that I still had not recovered from a terrible 2019 when everything started changing. My biggest stress right now is a lot of unanswered questions about my job and, shall we say, poor leadership from the people above me at work not providing answers and wanting to do what’s easy instead of what’s safe.

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