The peaks and troughs have evened out,
I barely even need to wear the belt,
But at what point does it all become a little boring?
A little safe?
Is it even possible to spice it up again
Without causing quite the awful accident?
I’ve had quite a few bits of good news recently and in the past I would be celebrating hard and living my best life. But right now, although I feel content, I don’t have that manic high that I used to experience.
And what is the thing that has caused this? Sobriety.
Some would say that I’ve taken all of the fun out of my life. And I do really miss those amazing highs when things went well. But what goes up must always come down, and I always came down with quite a traumatic bump. If anything, it was more of a splat.
Now that I have a couple of years of sobriety under my belt, things have smoothed out. And you know what? I wouldn’t swap it back. I’m quite happy to have lost those amazing highs, just so I know that I never need to go splat again.