new girl

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Walls that seem to loom in, menacing,

Warning her to watch her step and watch her mouth.

The test is taken only once

And if she fails her life could be a misery

Until the day she dies.

OK, it may be a bit dramatic to say that my life could be miserable until I die, but it is really important to make a good impression on a first day.

I’m starting my first school placement tomorrow and I have all kinds of feelings rushing through my brain. Nerves are at the forefront and I just want to make a good impression.

I lived in the same place for most of my life so I never really experienced being the new girl at school. I’ve done it at work before, but this time I have to deal with teenagers too.

One thing that is different this time around is that there is a confidence in myself now. I used to panic going into new jobs that I wouldn’t be good enough and that people will see straight through me. Then I self sabotage and completely kill off the job before I’ve even given it a chance.

This time, I know that there will be challenges but I know that I can deal with them. I’m a grown up and I trust in myself which is such an amazing thing for me to be able to say.

It almost brings tears to my eyes just thinking about how far I have come in this year since moving into my own place. I’m in my thirties and most people should be standing on their own two feet already, but for me, this is huge. And I’ll take that!

Much Love

Rachel xx

6 thoughts on “new girl

  1. crispina kemp

    My thoughts go with you; you’ll be fine, you’ll see. Besides, new term, everyone’s a tad anxious, even the experienced teachers. Chill. You’re no different to them.

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