I think Alanis Morissette
Liked to sing that it’s ironic
When most of us would scream
Knowing how annoying it can be
When things are never going
The way we planned to be.
So I know that face masks are really important and I wear one every time I go to the shops because I like to follow rules. BUT I’m still struggling to get into the habit of actually remembering to take my mask out with me.
This means that quite often I arrive at any given place and have to turn straight back round without even going in.
Today, I was going to church for the first time since lock down happened and what do I go and do? I forget my mask.
I’m only picking out mask wearing as an example because this is something I’m sure a lot of people can identify with at the moment. But there are so many things that just don’t go my way in life and I find it really hard to keep my cool.
I think that a lot of people show their frustration in these situations through aggression. I, on the other hand, tend to take it out on myself and it was a big part of the reason that I relied on drink for much of my twenties.
I am learning to understand that I can never control people, places and things but I still want to scream any time that any of those things don’t do as I want them to.
But instead of beating myself up tonight, I’m watching an online service and then I am sitting down to watch a couple of episodes of Selling Sunset.
Not everything will go my way, but I can enjoy the journey that I am being taken on with all its twists and turns.