Tired, so bloody tired
That my words a nonsensical
So I just stay quiet.
Better to say nothing
Than have them think bad
The wordy soup
That clogs up my throat.
I’m on a bit of a roller coaster this academic year and everyone warned me that it would happen. I’m happy but exhausted and a little bit stressed. And that is a toxic combination at times.
I’ve found that I’m getting much better at calming myself when I’m stressed but the tiredness then takes over and I find myself turning into a selective mute.
I don’t know if anyone else suffers with this but when I get this tired I can’t find the words for any situation. I feel really stupid and I can’t come up with any ideas that are interesting or clever.
I feel like all eyes are on me and everyone is waiting for me to say something but my tongue is tied and my throat is clogged. I just wish that I could get my brain firing like it should.
I’m OK though, and I need to keep telling myself that I’m doing so well. It’s OK to be quiet every now and then. I just need to go to sleep and start all over again tomorrow. Hopefully, I’ll be able to talk like a normal human by then (apparently it’s kind of important for a teacher to know how to use her words).