Tired, so bloody tired
That my words a nonsensical
So I just stay quiet.
Better to say nothing
Than have them think bad
The wordy soup
That clogs up my throat.
I’m on a bit of a roller coaster this academic year and everyone warned me that it would happen. I’m happy but exhausted and a little bit stressed. And that is a toxic combination at times.
I’ve found that I’m getting much better at calming myself when I’m stressed but the tiredness then takes over and I find myself turning into a selective mute.
I don’t know if anyone else suffers with this but when I get this tired I can’t find the words for any situation. I feel really stupid and I can’t come up with any ideas that are interesting or clever.
I feel like all eyes are on me and everyone is waiting for me to say something but my tongue is tied and my throat is clogged. I just wish that I could get my brain firing like it should.
I’m OK though, and I need to keep telling myself that I’m doing so well. It’s OK to be quiet every now and then. I just need to go to sleep and start all over again tomorrow. Hopefully, I’ll be able to talk like a normal human by then (apparently it’s kind of important for a teacher to know how to use her words).
7 thoughts on “when your brain is a little bit guffed”
Hang in there!
I’m doing my best! x
You’re not alone. My entire communications system falls apart when I’m stressed and tired. And you’re achieving so much, an inspiration to us all 🙂
That’s so sweet. I’m glad I’m not the only one. It’s so annoying when I want to say something profound and all I can manage is mumbo jumbo
This is why I took to writing. With writing you have time to think, to rephrase, to edit, to make it your best
Just trying to make sense of my brain...
Thank you for sharing Rachel, I feel like I can relate so much. When I’m stressed my mind just feels all fuzzy 🥴
Some people can cope so well with tiredness but I just can’t! It’s like I’m a totally different person.