Tired, so bloody tired
That my words a nonsensical
So I just stay quiet.
Better to say nothing
Than have them think bad
And misunderstand
The wordy soup
That clogs up my throat.
I’m on a bit of a roller coaster this academic year and everyone warned me that it would happen. I’m happy but exhausted and a little bit stressed. And that is a toxic combination at times.
I’ve found that I’m getting much better at calming myself when I’m stressed but the tiredness then takes over and I find myself turning into a selective mute.
I don’t know if anyone else suffers with this but when I get this tired I can’t find the words for any situation. I feel really stupid and I can’t come up with any ideas that are interesting or clever.
I feel like all eyes are on me and everyone is waiting for me to say something but my tongue is tied and my throat is clogged. I just wish that I could get my brain firing like it should.
I’m OK though, and I need to keep telling myself that I’m doing so well. It’s OK to be quiet every now and then. I just need to go to sleep and start all over again tomorrow. Hopefully, I’ll be able to talk like a normal human by then (apparently it’s kind of important for a teacher to know how to use her words).
Much Love
Rachel xx
clivebennett796
Hang in there!
patientandkindlove
I’m doing my best! x
crispina kemp
You’re not alone. My entire communications system falls apart when I’m stressed and tired. And you’re achieving so much, an inspiration to us all š
patientandkindlove
That’s so sweet. I’m glad I’m not the only one. It’s so annoying when I want to say something profound and all I can manage is mumbo jumbo
crispina kemp
This is why I took to writing. With writing you have time to think, to rephrase, to edit, to make it your best
Just trying to make sense of my brain...
Thank you for sharing Rachel, I feel like I can relate so much. When Iām stressed my mind just feels all fuzzy š„“
patientandkindlove
Some people can cope so well with tiredness but I just can’t! It’s like I’m a totally different person.