Sneaking around in darkened corners,
Making plans so clandestine
As life goes on out in the light
And wishing that they knew.
So I just applied for a job. And for some reason I feel guilty; like I’m stabbing the school I’m training in, deep between the shoulder blades. They funny thing is that this is what we are supposed to do. There is no position that is definitely opening up at my current school, so why not throw my hat into the ring and apply for a role?
I’m finding that I must have a really low level of self confidence, as I don’t feel like I deserve the position. I’m breaking down my thought pattern and I can see that I’m already telling myself I won’t get it; the only way I’ll be employed as a teacher is if people (at my training school) get to know me.
I just know that on paper I’m a load of crap. And get me in an interview and it becomes even worse!
But this is the year of pushing my boundaries and just giving things a try, so I’ve handed in my crap application form and you never know….. They might take pity on this rather lost little 36 year old.
Still, I feel sneaky. But excited. Definitely excited.
3 thoughts on “does anyone else feel naughty?”
I remember how, like you, I felt guilty about applying for another job. And it never occurred to me that this new job would take up my references before they even interviewed me. But next thing I knew, our GM plonked himself in my office and explained how he was about to lose a valuable manager at another site. Then he stunned me by offering me the job. Lo! Promotion. Yay!
Do’t feel bad about it. It shows you have initiative and ambition
I would love it if the school I’m training in could take me on. Perhaps they’ll get a reference request and snap me up before I go!!!
That would be good for you. But perhaps a variety of settings would also be beneficial. See several sides, several conditions, different staff, different pupils, different problems.