i’m wondering if my brain has reached capacity?

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I can’t even be bothered to write a little poem right now. I’m not exactly tired, but I feel like I can’t function.

Between the nights getting longer and the dark creeping in earlier and earlier in the afternoon, and my brain just feeling so full, I’m just finding that I can’t function at the moment.

It’s making me feel really emotional and tearful, but I can’t even say that I’m sad. I’m just full up with ‘stuff’. I don’t know whether I’m coming or going and the end of term can’t come quick enough.

I cried on my way home tonight because I felt so frustrated. My brain is full to bursting point and I know that I still have so much more to learn. And then the job that I went for said that they didn’t even want to interview me. There are a million reasons why that might be the case, but it just feels like flat out rejection while I’m this tired.

I also watched as a teacher broke a child down to crying today. It wasn’t done maliciously and the teacher had every right to pull the kid to one side. But I can’t help but think about what might be going on in her life to make her behave the way that she does.

I’m just feeling so super sensitive to everything at the moment and it’s exhausting.

That said, I am sensitive to the good stuff too and I can still see what an awesome impact I can make on these kids’ lives. I’ve just got all the emotions at the moment and I think it’s become apparent that I might be in need of a rest!

I hope that you all have a restful weekend, especially if you need it as much as I do….

Much Love

Rachel xx

4 thoughts on “i’m wondering if my brain has reached capacity?

  1. crispina kemp

    Take a good long break, Rachel. Do something totally different. I know you like running, but a gentle walk might be less stressful on a body whose mind is on overload. Just my thought. As ever, I wish you well

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