Those little shiny gems in life,
The bubbles in your sweet Champagne,
They come from nowhere,
Brightening our lives,
And then it somehow turns quite bitter,
Burning at the tongue.
Better, it will get again
But days are always up and down.
Does anyone else literally go from ceiling to floor in the space of an afternoon? I have worked so hard at trying to flatten out my emotions a bit, but I get so excited by the good news and then get so crushed by the bad.
I know that life is made of ups and downs but I sometimes wish that I could have a down first and then an up to sweeten the day.
Today, was one such day, where everything was going brilliantly. I have been trying to get a three day placement in a Primary School to observe the Year 6’s and it’s been an absolute ball ache. But today, I finally got somebody agree to let me come and see them. Of course, I was over the moon.
And then, I was really brave and I asked for a meeting with my Headteacher to talk about employment in September. I haven’t got a definite job offer but I know that if things pan out in the way that I hope they do, there is a chance! What was more important in the situation was that I was impressed with myself for actually having the guts to request that meeting and go along to it. I have a real fear of going into offices with authority figures and then having the door closed on us. It’s weird, I know, but that is one of my biggest fears in life.
However, after coming bounding home, full of the joys of Spring, I received an email from the school that I had applied to in the meantime. Of course, I had not been offered an interview (again). My head went in a spin and I came down from my high pretty quickly.
I’m fine now but it reminded me that I need to stay on top of those highs because the fall can be quite drastic when bad news comes my way. I am sure that you all have those days of two halves and I hope that you deal with them a bit better than I do.
Stay safe and don’t let those nasty surprises bring you down.