A blackened eye that shines from underneath

A thick and tacky sheen of make up

In the hope that they won’t notice

You are not in any shape to swim

In their pool and see the light,

You don’t belong and this is just the truth

Written on your tired and angry face.

Does anyone else always feel like they make the worst first impressions? I try my hardest but there is always something that goes wrong and it’s always just as I’m starting a new job and I want to put my best foot forward.

Today I had a transition day into my new school that I will be in for Term 2 of this year. Of course, I was given the last appointment that the dentist had before Christmas and it happened to fall last night.

She hammered away at my gums to get a stubborn tooth out and so this morning I woke up with a swollen face. Only one student said something to me about it but I had a feeling that the teachers were looking at me and wondering.

Back in 2018, when I started working in the petrol station, I took a tumble in my first week. I went out running and tripped. I put my arm out but still bashed my head hard enough to chip the eye socket. And then my arm ended up fracturing and my shoulder dislocated.

I had to take a week off work and the boss was furious. There was nothing I could do but it was just the worst luck ever. Whenever these things happen, it’s always on my first day or within the first week or two.

I’m hoping that my hamster face is the worst that I’ll come up against in this placement but I still have the whole two weeks over Christmas to do some damage! Stay safe people.

Much Love

Rachel xx