who’s feeling the most lost today?

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I took a little track, between the trees,

Away from where the road was rolled

And soon it petered out to nothing more

Than some trampled bramble brush.

Exciting first and then it faded soon

And that was when the darkness fell

And ennui became a normal quicker than

I ever thought that it could be.

I’ll find a way back to that road

And then I’ll feel so light I’d fly

Forever and a day…

I’m quite surprised how suddenly I feel a bit lost as we go into another national lockdown. Back in March I was working in retail so the lockdown made no difference to my life, but this time I’m working from home.

It’s actually quite pleasant so I’m not complaining, but I feel like I’ve been knocked off course and it feels a little bit frightening. I was in my row boat, heading towards shore and now an obstacle that I didn’t see coming has knocked me in a different direction. I’m safe, but I’m not going the way that I should be going.

Does anyone else feel like this? It’s so strong I get a physical dizziness. My mind knows that I should be at school and after one day, I’m not. It just goes to show how much I need routine in my life.

I hope that this lockdown isn’t too terrible for anyone else. I think we just need to reach out to people so that we can find some stability while things are a bit shaky. What I have found is that these strange circumstances do bring out some of the nicest parts of human nature. And that has got to be something to rejoice.

Much Love

Rachel xx

3 thoughts on “who’s feeling the most lost today?

  1. Margot Kinberg

    I think the pandemic has upended everything. We all have to do things in a different way, so it’s not surprising that you feel a little lost. We’ll all figure out, but it does take a little time…

  2. crispina kemp

    Earlier in this pandemic people were referring to it as the Rabbit Hole. I’d say it’s even more so now but add in Labyrinth too. I’m going with it, not fighting, trying to do the best I can in the given circumstances. 1 in 50 now have Covid. My father has it, brought to him in lockdown by a carer. My home town is the worst affected in our region. Ho-hum, hey, let’s whistle a happy tune. What else can we do?
    Stay safe. Don’t take chances. And don’t be the death of others.

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