My arms stretched wide like cast iron scales,
The bad bits of this precious life
Will weigh down heavy on the left
But on the right I’ll drop the good,
The shining moments warming hearts
And there we’ll see the gracious pull
Of kindness, praise and little wins;
They’ll always weigh one hundred times
The weight of hate, of sneering lips,
Of whispered words that loving skips.
I had a double with a Year 7 class that I have never met today. I worry about the fact that I have never met these kids and that I’ll do them a disservice because I don’t know them.
These thoughts do weigh heavily on me and it is a crappy part of the job at the moment. But then something wonderful happens and it just totally outweighs anything bad.
I delivered my lesson and afterwards a girl emailed me to say that she really enjoyed it and she can’t wait to meet me in person. Can you believe that? An eleven year old sent me a sweet message full of emojis and lovely words.
I’ve never had a job where there is enough good stuff to outweigh the bad. In my last job, I literally had to scrape crap off the toilet floors. I would sometimes clean the toilets and be gagging because of the smell. Nothing could make that better.
I’ll always try to look for something good in every situation, but it’s really nice to not have to scratch around for that one thing. Today had its down sides, but on the whole, it made my heart feel warm.