when it’s all just too beautiful

Oh, it’s frustrating,

That little niggle that finds its way

To hook on you

When beauty gets too much

It takes your breath away.

I should be feeling blessed

Not green with envy like I am.

I’ve read some amazing stuff recently and it brought to mind a quote that I saw somewhere on the internet. I do find myself just having to stop for a while and just reflect.

It’s an amazing thing, and I should feel so lucky and blessed that I can read something that has such a profound effect on me. But the problem is that all I seem to feel is jealousy. I hate the person who wrote something so amazing; something that I know I’d never be talented enough to write.

All I can think about is my own stunted language that sits in my latest Google Doc. It’s like lumpy custard that I feel like everyone is turning their nose up at. Meanwhile, everyone is salivating over the custard from M&S that has all of those lovely little vanilla flecks in it. And the fact that I’m using custard as a metaphor for my writing is rather telling.

One day I’ll have something that I’ve produced that will be silky and sweet. But for now, I’ll just enjoy what other people are producing in spades and keep working at what I love. I’ll get there one day. After all, this is a marathon, not a sprint.

Much Love

Rachel xx

7 thoughts on “when it’s all just too beautiful

  1. Margot Kinberg

    That’s one thing writers really need to learn: not to compare themselves with other writers. We’re all different, and we all have strengths as writers. Having your own unique voice is what matters. We do our own voices much better than we could emulate any other writers style.

  2. crispina kemp

    You’re not alone in this, though *jealous* is too strong a word for me. I just wish I could write such inspiring lines, that someone would quote something of mine. But I accept it won’t be so. Acceptance makes us happy

      1. crispina kemp

        Yea. Great. Well maybe with my next book (out 2022 (I hope) cos the MC likes to say, Yeah, Wonderful. Great. & Natzo, & Yeah-zo.
        Catchy, hey. Just not philosophically deep

  3. anotherkatewilson

    Oh, I know exactly how you feel, when you stop and stare at the wall thinking “I wish I’d written that”. It’s bad enough when it’s a book by a respected author, worse when it’s one someone else’s blog. 😀

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