It feels like wading through sludge,
Watching the others rise to dizzy heights
And not really knowing, where I am going
Or will I be safe, or will I be loved?
I had my interview today and they phoned me back to say that they weren’t hiring me. It feels like a punch to the stomach even though I know I did really well to get to the interview stage.
The problem is that everyone else on the course has had a job open up at their first school placement and I haven’t had that luck. And I know that really it is just bad luck that this has been the situation for me.
I’m trying to spend this evening thinking of all the good things I’ve achieved and all the reasons that they may have chosen someone else (and I have to remember how early on I am in my career and the fact that I may have been up against experienced teachers!)
My number one thing is that I might be realising that working in the same town that I live in might not be the greatest idea and in that respect I might have dodged a bullet. I’m tempted to start casting my net a bit further and trying the next town along. It will be nice to know that I’m not going to be seeing kids I teach when I’m doing my weekly shop.
I just need to remember for the time being that I didn’t get turned down because they hate me or they think that I’m a crap teacher. I will find a home and everything will work out just the way it’s meant to.
Much Love
Rachel xx
Margot Kinberg
I am so sorry that you got that bad news! That’s disheartening. I’m glad you’re reminding yourself, though, that it’s not personal, and it says nothing about you as a person or as a teacher. After you rest a bit, I hope you will cast your net wider. There are so many good schools, and you would be a real asset to any of them.
patientandkindlove
Aw thank you. It is really disheartening but I know that it will all come good!
clcouch123
I’m sorry. I’d feel the way you do as well. I’d try to remember that there are things at work among the hirers that I’ll never know. And, like you, I’d cast my net again.
Greg Dennison
That’s a tough one, I’ve been there… but there’s something better out there for you. And at least they were nice enough to call you, instead of leaving you hanging for a month, or indefinitely, like the majority of jobs I’ve interviewed for and haven’t gotten.
crispina kemp
The right job will come. Patience. Perseverance. You know what it’s about. Hold in there; it’ll all drop into place