the frustration of knowing it’s a lie

anonymous woman screaming underwater
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That is my poem today,

Because sometimes it builds

Inside your chest

And all that comes out is an


No words are enough,

Just screams in the void.

Have you ever had somebody tell a lie about you and you’ve not been able to defend yourself. It is possibly the most frustrating feeling I think that a human being can feel.

My mother is just terrible for spreading lies. She’s told people that I have stolen thousands of pounds from her. Then she said that actually she thought I’d taken a book and now she can’t even remember which book it is.

But today she really topped it off by claiming that she needs her sister at the house when dad collects his stuff because he has threatened her with violence. Dad wouldn’t hurt a fly and it’s crushing to hear her say these awful things.

I heard a while back the the royal family use the saying ‘never explain and never complain’ and I really think that is such a classy way of dealing with things. Even if somebody completely slags them off they won’t say a word.

Obviously I wouldn’t be very good at that because I’ve just spent ten minutes writing about my woes. But I have to say that it is so bloody frustrating when you know that there’s no truth in what has been said. I wish I didn’t have to scream. I wish I could be quiet like Kate Middleton and the Queen.

Maybe one day.

Much Love

Rachel xx

3 thoughts on “the frustration of knowing it’s a lie

  1. Margot Kinberg

    I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been lied about, and not just by anyone. I think it’s hardest when it’s a person who’s supposed to be ‘on your side.’ I completely understand how frustrated and upset you are! You’re right that it’s not worth wasting a lot of time denying the whole thing, but still…

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