the unwanted child

They’re beautiful, I was told by everyone.

You always love your child, with their newborn smell.

But what does that make me?

The mum that cannot bear to look at the baby in her arms,

With milk dried in fleshy folds of chunky necks

And circle mouths that let out cooing sounds.

I hate myself for hating this,

The thing it’s law to love.

But bubble baths and baby soap never did fulfil

The aching hole that seared my soul

When the child was pulled from me,

Screaming for a swift return

To a place that just exists, in a dreamy flight.

One thought on “the unwanted child

  1. Margot Kinberg

    This is really powerful! Among many other things, it really highlights the difference between how we’re ‘supposed to’ feel and react, and what really goes on inside sometimes.

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