The veil of darkness falls across the sky
As movement and my freedom wane,
I walk on weary legs, to places seen
Only through a window pane.
I realise now, the slave that I’ve become
And when that object that I crave
Goes up in flames, a wall of icy heat,
Then I know that independence was
The most important thing to me.
I realise that this poem is very dramatic and it sounds like my whole life has gone up in flames, but with my car quite literally going up in flames, I have lost something really important to me: my independence.
I learnt to drive when Noah was a baby and I realised that getting the bus with a baby and a pushchair and a few bags of shopping was just too much for me to cope with. And since then my car has become more important to me than I actually realised.
I work in a school that is out in the middle of nowhere and I have a teenager who I could need to get to if anything goes wrong at his school. So not having the car has actually made me feel a bit panicked.
I feel that it’s a bit sad that I’m so reliant on my car because I don’t even particularly like cars. But it’s that freedom that I crave. I’m hoping that I can get a new one super quick and I will never have to see the inside of a bus again.
I take my hat off to those of you that commute on public transport all of the time. You are all legends.
5 thoughts on “loss of independence day”
I know what you mean. I use public transit when I can, but I also have (and am grateful for ) my car. I wouldn’t want to be without some form transport like that, even though we’ve got Uber and other options now. It’s a scary thought when you feel you’ve lost control.
It is. I think it’s knowing that I can get somewhere in an emergency that’s most important to me.
Your car was on fire? How dreadful! I agree with you about commuters but also about the independence of driving. In your case, though, there is the matter of need. Of family and professional need. I hope you get another car super quick as well.
I think it should be sorted soon but even a week is a long time to wait. At least it was just the car and none of us were actually in it when it happened!
Sorry to hear about your car. I know how vital they are for accessing rural areas. I haven’t a car & must rely on public transport to get to & from my weekly walks… which really restricts where I can go