She lived here once, we think,
A faceless ghost that drifted through the rooms.
We thought we heard her whispering
Through netted curtains stained with time,
But we knew it couldn’t be.
So we pulled on thicker sweaters
And closed the windows closed.
We scrubbed her name from envelopes
That poured in through the door in spades,
Even that would not convince them that
She was once known at this loved address.
I got another bag of stuff through from the house that has now been sold. I’ve learnt to harden my heart when they come through because I know that something bad will be in each delivery. And today’s was no different.
In the bag was a letter for me and in my aunt’s handwriting, on the envelope, is written ‘NOT KNOWN AT THIS ADDRESS’. I can’t fathom what would make her wish to scrub me. She has been vicious and it actually hurts my heart. I’ve also been blocked by my mum on Facebook and I know that’s down to her sister.
I think that rejection by a mother is possibly one of the toughest things to go through. To know that your mother hates you so much that you are no longer a known person at the family home.
I literally want to crumple. There is no air in my lungs and my body hurts. This pain is immense.
9 thoughts on “not known at this address”
How horrible for you, Rachel! I can only imagine how gutted you must feel. I’m very sorry that happened, and that you had to go through this. Sending you good wishes for strength and peace… xx
Thank you x
Oh no, sweetheart. I didn’t know this. My heart aches for you. I will be praying. I’m sending too hugs of comfort and peace. ❤️🙏🏻🤗
Thank you, that means a lot to me x
You’re so welcome sweetheart ❤️
rebecca s revels
Reading this hurts my heart. I am so sorry you are having to endure such. Offering hugs for peace and strength.
That’s terrible for you! I’ll be sending all the thoughts and prayers I have towards you. I hope things get better.
On a positive note (which perhaps you’re not ready to see) this forced closure does release you to go make the most of your life, which I know you are doing..