Fumbling fingers, that refuse to do
The job that they’re paid to do.
There are only few actions
That should come so easy
And yet after a week
They’re alien to me.
I am back to school after a lovely half term break, and now I feel like I have forgotten how to teach. I think that a lot of the problem is down to being a new teacher and taking even a short break can knock my confidence. It almost feels like I’m starting from scratch again.
This happens in any job, as I remember working at the petrol station and I felt like I had forgotten which buttons to press on the till after coming back from a two week holiday. Of course I hadn’t really forgotten how to operate the till….but that fear remains.
I think this week is going to be a bit bumpy as I find my feet again, but I need to remind myself that I trained hard for a year to do this job, and that means that I really do know how to do this. I may not have the muscle memory yet, but I’m sure I can fumble my way through this.