Who are you calling when the clouds hang low
And the sunlight fails to come through?
When you’re fumbling for phones and your face is aglow
With the light from the screen, blinking so blankly,
Growing our hope when there really is none.
There will be a time when you need that saved number
And a hand in the dark to pull towards light,
When you’re sure that there’s nothing left worth the fight.
I trained alongside a girl who was teaching in England for two years having come over from Australia. When I was over in South Africa I was unbelievably homesick so I could only imagine how she felt in the middle of a pandemic.
However, that was some sixteen years ago and so I had forgotten those feelings and how painful they could be. I was only reminded when we were teaching the Year 7s A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness.
We had just reached the bit that breaks everyone’s hearts and we were all in our staff room talking about our thoughts and how the Year 7s didn’t seem to ‘get it’.
It was then that this Australian girl said that when she had finished with the class that day, she had immediately pulled out her phone and messaged all her family on the other side of the world telling them how much she loved them.
I felt my heart give a little twinge when I heard her say that. My mum had just moved away to I don’t know where and I was wondering if anyone actually loved me. I realised that I had one less person that I could reach out to when life got tough.
Hold onto those people with all of your might; it’s sad when you lose them.
5 thoughts on “who are you calling in the dark times?”
I’m so sorry that you and your mum don’t have a relationship. Even if it’s better for you, it’s still sad, as you say. It really is important to reach out to the people who are truly your friends and family-by-choice. They matter.
Never be ashamed to reach out to the people you truly love 🙂