It comes in torrents
Of painful words
With only tiny glimmers
Of golden positivity.
I had my meeting with my HOD today and it turns out that I need a bit more support with my behaviour management (and I’ll second that because I sometimes feel like I’m in a war zone).
My heart sank when I sat down in front of her and she said that I wasn’t quite cutting it. Immediately, my mind went to the worst and I had visions of them ‘managing me out’.
However, as the day went on, I received emails from three people offering up mentoring time so I’m starting to think this is more about making sure I’m getting the support I deserve as a newly qualified teacher.
COVID has absolutely ruined the year in terms of staffing and it’s meant that I haven’t had the observations and feedback that I’m entitled to. That’s nobody’s fault, but I’m reminding myself that this is attention that I am owed.
And the more I think about it, the more I think how lucky I am to have a brilliant teacher in my lesson giving me some instant feedback.
Feedback hurts because it can dent your pride but I don’t think people would offer it if they didn’t think that it was going to be of any use. Let’s hope that she can impart some quick wins to me because those twelve year olds are running rings around me.
Much Love
Rachel xx
Margot Kinberg
I’m so glad you’re seeing this as getting the support you need, Rachel! We all need support as we learn something new, as you are learning how to teach. Without feedback and support, it’s really hard to do things well, even simple things. Yes, of course, you have to work hard, pay attention to the feedback you get, and work towards goals. But you can’t become the teacher you were meant to be without support. It sounds as though your colleagues know that and are acting on it, which is great.
patientandkindlove
I do hope that these meetings are for support!
wjwingrove97
hugs 🤗🤗
patientandkindlove
Thank you x
Christopher
Margot says it perfectly. As far as how you feel, I can relate. Hang on, stay with it. I believe you will succeed.
patientandkindlove
I’m hoping that I’m just being an idiot again.
Greg Dennison
Hang in there!
patientandkindlove
I’m trying!