The coffee shop buzz still sounds
In my lonely, exhausted head,
The scratching and scraping
Will take some time to soothe,
A couple of days with my books
And my worlds on the TV,
A window outside, the battery recharged
And I can leave once again.
I went out yesterday and I don’t do that very often. I went to a coffee shop and met with a friend and her boyfriend and somebody who I will be working with in my new school when I start in September.
It was lovely and I had a nice coffee and a lovely chat, but it took every last bit of energy to do. And I’m feeling the effects today.
Everything has felt scratchy and I’ve felt like I just want to snap at everybody for nothing. For some reason I’m also ruminating on things that happened years ago and it’s like I’m deliberately trying to make myself angry.
The strange thing is that I don’t have any problems leaving the house to go shopping. Walking around town, amongst the strangers and just people watching is one of my favourite things. My issue is when I’m going to meet someone I know and I’m going to have to talk.
I’m sure there are other people out there who have the same feelings as I do, but it is bloody exhausting. I have to get myself ready to go again next week and so it will all begin again.
Much Love
Rachel xx
Margot Kinberg
I understand exactly what you mean, Rachel! I’m an introvert, too, and I’ve found that social interactions can be absolutely exhausting. Even interactions you wanted, and enjoyed, can sap you – well, they do me. I find it helps to build in some rejuvenation time to recover before the next one.
patientandkindlove
Lot’s of reading and running to escape for a couple of hours…
Pauline, creator and writer, The Healing of Life blog...
One day at a time, one hour at a time and sometimes one minute at a time can feel less overwhelming whenever we face things that are tough for us… perhaps limiting the time might help?
patientandkindlove
I’m learning all of the time. It’s tricky to find a nice balance in the world that we live in, isn’t it?