The feeling when the boss walks on

And you were on your phone

Or taking a selfie

Or playing Solitaire

And he frowns at you and sighs

And you just know he’s not angry,

It’s worse,

He’s disappointed.

I left work today on one of the low parts of this rollercoaster of a job. There are some days when I feel like I’m the best freakin’ teacher in the world, and then there are the days like today.

The kids were manic and yet other teachers were telling me that the same group were angels for them. And then the boss walks in when the students are running around like we’re in a circus.

It doesn’t help that I have an unnatural fear of getting fired. I’m terrified of bosses because I feel they will see right through me and see that I’m a fake who just managed to slip through the net and qualify accidentally.

I’ll probably have a fantastic day on Monday and feel like I’m in line for Teacher of the Year Award, but for now I feel tired and vulnerable and I’m looking forward to crawling into bed and losing myself in the magical world of a book.

Much Love

Rachel xx