When do you make a fuss

And when do you sew your mouth shut?

When do you take a needle and thread,

Piercing the skin with a painful prick

And pulling the cotton tight?

Or when do you snap

Those restraining cords

And let flow the torrent of anger

You’ve held back for some time?

I had a sixteen year old launch a book at me in anger today. A sixteen year old boy is tall and intimidating, and when he throws a book at you – whether it hits you or not – it can feel quite frightening.

The problem is that the last time I was frightened at work, I told my boss and she went out of her way to put me in the most awful situations.

Deep down I know that my current workplace would never do that to me, but you remain scarred from nasty situations that you’ve lived through, and similar situations can then feel really frightening.

I have spent five years just saying that everything is OK, even if I do feel uncomfortable, just because I don’t want drama. And it has worked as there has been no drama. But I struggle to know when is the appropriate time to ‘kick up a fuss’? And do you have a right to make a fuss if you are feeling frightened? Or am I just the drama queen who needs to grow a pair and just deal with it?

So many questions, and so many social situations I’m just totally unable to decifer.

Much Love

Rachel xx