How bad would you be at your childhood dream?

How much would you hate that perfect job?

Would you sit in the car, crying each day,

Hoping to God that something will happen

To stop you from going to that place that’s a Hell

That once seemed a dream

When you were a fresh faced young teen.

I really love watching Casualty, ER and 24 Hours in A&E; that is until there is any sign of a broken bone. If I see a bone sticking out at an awkward angle, I feel sick and dizzy and I need to turn over pronto.

The thing is that when I went to school, I wanted to be a doctor. I even chose my A Levels in the hope that I could eventually go to medical school; but thankfully, that went horribly wrong.

Because, as I got older, I got worse and worse when it came to being in a hospital setting. I can watch it on TV, but as soon as I set foot inside one, I am a shaky mess.

I really hope that I’m not the only one who knows for certain that they would be terrible at the job I really wanted to do as a kid. It would be laughable to watch me deal with a shift in an A&E department, but there must be others out there.

Is there anyone who wanted to be a pop star but cannot sing, or wanted to be a vet but has a crippling fear of dogs? At least one advantage to being totally lost, is that you get to wander around and enjoy the world before you’re pinned down to the career that’s ‘the one’.

Much Love

Rachel xx