Her heart is racing, a fluttering
Like a humming bird thumping
Against the brittle bones, a cage
And she feels like she’s trapped inside.
The whiteness of her dress is blinding
And tightening slowly, as she wonders
Should she make her way to the flowery aisle,
Or should she turn and run?
She’s been thinking about it for months now,
When everyone says how excited she should be.
But instead, it’s just a panic scraping at her brain,
Warning her in an angry red
That she shouldn’t go ahead.
I wonder how many people change their mind about getting married on the day of their wedding? There must be quite a few, as shocking as it sounds. I mean, it’s such a huge step to take and there must be lots of people who feel that they just can’t get through with it, even though they have been swept along in the excitement for far too long.
I’ve never organized a proper wedding, but I can imagine that it’s quite exciting to pick out the flowers and the cake, and to go and try on dresses. And it’s probably really difficult to say no when you get asked.
In short, as soon as the question is asked of you, it becomes really tricky to reverse any decisions, and if you’re a people pleaser it must be really easy to get dragged along for months, feeling utterly miserable.
I could imagine myself doing just that, and then having to get my trainers on and running very quickly, away from the church. But then I am a bit of a flake, so I do feel that you would be taking a risk if you ever thought it was a good idea to propose to me.
2 thoughts on “the runaway bride”
I’d guess that you’re probably right, Rachel, and that plenty of people do back away from a wedding at the last minute like that. It is, as you say, a major step. And the wedding itself can be very stressful. There are probably many people, too, who do go ahead with the wedding and the marriage, but not before having second, and third, and fourth… thoughts about it.
I did it when I was nineteen and too young to understand the weight of it. I don’t know if I could even make that step now – I’d be too scared.