They’re little spots of pain and joy,

Ends of nerves that need a poke

And soon you’ll find the tears are streaming,

Where they’re from? You’ll never know

It’s just a funny little thing

Us humans seem to deeply suffer.

I’m watching the Sarah Beeny vs cancer documentary on TV and it has kind of pushed on a pressure point I didn’t realise existed. For anyone not in the UK, Sarah is a property developer who has been on lots of TV shows over the years. Last year she got breast cancer and she used her platform to talk openly about her experience and how treatments have advanced over the years.

Normally I would find this really interesting but given that I gave myself a little scare last week, it seems to have pushed a button that I didn’t know was there. When she showed her hair coming out, I actually found my eyes welling up and some pretty powerful emotions washed over me.

I’m all OK, but it just goes to show what kind of emotional residue can be left behind when something bad happens, or you have a scare. Trauma – even those tiny emotional knocks we suffer from day to day – can resurface at any time and I find that quite fascinating. I also find it quite empowering that I understand that now, and I can start to pinpoint where these feelings might come from.

Much Love

Rachel xx