why can’t humans dream of electric sheep?

I saw a Tweet today that asked the question – if we are on our phones for 12 hours a day then why do we not dream about them?

simon cowell in glasses

The girls in my tutor group are only twelve, but they are all so interested in who their thirty something teacher might have a crush

when the secrets start to tumble out

I was just musing on how awful a lie can turn out to be when you’ve pushed it down for a long time. Since getting sober, I’ve learnt that

drunk teenagers in the park

I went for a run around the local sports ground this evening. There was a beautiful sunset and it was so quiet until I noticed a group of about

Pulling pints on match day

We had the Women’s FA Cup Final today and it was lovely to see it televised and attended by thousands. Things are really looking up for

when you just can’t let it lie

You poke it with a stick,

A sleeping bear, you know is dangerous.

It will get angry, and hurt

But you have to feel that pain,

You don’t know any other way.

So, I’ve entered another 100 mile foot race next month. If I had finished the one at the weekend, there is no way I would have entered another one; but the pain of failure is just too much for this girl to take.

I’m sure there are a lot of other people who struggle to let things go when it all turns to shit. I guess that’s how people become successful in nine out of ten cases. It’s that inability to say ‘well, I found that difficult so I just won’t bother doing it again.’

I may be a crap runner, but I do have a dogged determination to get things done. One of my colleagues said she thinks I have a bit of a probleem. And I have to agree. And I’m kinda glad that I do have this problem.

Much Love

Rachel xx

do you ever worry?

Do you ever worry that you talk too much about yourself?

That you’re the centre of the universe

And everyone knows it.

They hear about your rubbish morning

And the argument you had last night,

The fact that lunch was accidentally burnt

And now you have to stay on late.

And it’s only when you see the gentle eye roll

Them looking at their watch,

You realise you know nothing of their day,

Because, after all, you’re the star of your own show.

bouncing back

Not everything goes to plan,

It doesn’t always end in glory

But pull it together

Get those trainers back on

And hit the hills, the trails

And enjoy for the joy of it,

Those rolling hills, filled with green,

Drink it in and be a champ

You’ve learnt some lessons

And had a flipping blast.

I tried a hundred mile run over the weekend and it really tipped it down so it was a bit like trying to run an ultra on a Tough Mudder course. And so I failed. I only made it to 68 miles.

I can make all the excuses that the weather was miserable and the ground was just too boggy for me. I’m not a natural runner and so I do have to have good conditions if I’m going to make it to the end. I just wasn’t good enough on the day and that is quite a difficult thing to swallow.

I just have to remember that I had fun, I met some lovely people and I have some memories to look back on, even if I didn’t get my belt buckle and finisher T-shirt. I still ran a lot further than most people could ever dream of.

It’s just hard and I feel like I’m wallowing in the depression at the moment. I’m not sure if it’s justified, or whether I’m just being a bit of an entitled little madam. Wherever this feeling is coming from, I’m sure so many others have felt it and you can only come back stronger.

If you’ve had a set back or a failure recently, I understand and I see you. Let’s get back on the horse and show the world what we’re made of.

Much Love

Rachel xx