football anxiety

three men wearing yellow shirt embracing each other
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Extra time,

It’s painful, blinding us with nerves

As we cling together like

Survivors of a sinking ship,

Our flags draped over hunched up shoulders,

And nails bitten to the quick.

Could this end it tears?

Who knows?

We’ll open up our eyes when they have scored.

I don’t know about anyone else but I struggle to watch the football because I get too nervous. I do actually have it on right now and just while I have been writing this poem I felt like my heart stopped on two occasions.

I’m no good at watching any sport. And I always got so nervous when I was a competitive swimmer that I would end up throwing up. I should be kept away from sport for my own safety.

For now, I will stay hidden behind the sofa for the next fifteen minutes and I will come out only when that final whistle is blown.

Much Love

Rachel xx

The beautiful game

They packed in pubs that sold them pints,

Pickled eggs and packs of crisps in tarty flavours,

Sea salt and vinegar, pink prawn cocktail

And pork scratchings dropped in an excited fluster

As men in football jerseys jostle at the sticky tables

Looking for the space to jump, when joy will wash

Over them in tidal waves, if the TV tells them so.

The screens are green, only broken by the tiny players,

Burgeoning with moneyed privilege, but who am I to judge?

We savour moments on the tongue, hoping that

The opposition will not claw back at that lead,

Staring at the corner clock, seconds ticking

As we hiss like angry snakes at a weary ref:

‘Blow the whistle, man! Blow the bloody whistle!’

And finally it does become a win, as pints and crisps

Are thrown up in the air, a perfect frieze of happiness,

If only we could hold that moment, Kodak ready,

But it fades, as all moments blemish-free will do.

I’ll still be smiling in the morning on the train to work,

I’ll still enjoy that tiny sliver of the silver joy

For as many days as I can eke from that ninety minute game.