But I know that the world will miss your bright spark.
If you give up the fight and leave us behind
Our world will become incredibly dark.
I just wanted to write a rhyming poem for anyone who is struggling. I saw a post on Twitter earlier today that inspired this one. It was written by Matt Haig and it was about how touched he is when people reach out and say that his books made a difference in their lives, and potentially saved them from suicide.
I thought that there must be loads of people out there who don’t know what a positive impact that are making on the world and are just moments away from ending it because they feel hopeless and useless.
Remember, none of you are useless or hopeless. You might feel like your are in a bad place now but you have no idea what great things might be around the corner. And you have to think of all the people in your life who would miss you so much if you were gone.
If you are worried about somebody, perhaps send them this poem to show them that you care and that they are an important part of your world. Stay strong and love one another out there because it can be a crazy, scary world.
She looked at him properly for the very first time,
The sun filtered through windows to blind her with light.
I haven’t a clue what you mean, she muttered,
But way deep down in the pit of her stomach
She knew that he knew.
There was something extraordinary
About the man dressed in white.
He smiled and he stroked at her face
And everything melted away.
He was gone by the time they reached the next stop,
But he saved her that day.
She had been travelling to the place where she planned to jump,
Feeling empty and dark, a weight on the world.
It only took one person to shine in a light.
Whether he was real or an angel on the bus,
It really didn’t matter,
He quietened the chatter inside of her head,
For just long enough
To pull her away from the edge.
I feel like everyone needs an angel at some point in their life. And I like to believe that sometimes we get one sent down. There has been a lot of talk about suicide in the UK over this weekend and the need to reach out and talk when things are difficult. But this is a bloody scary thing to do when you already feel crappy, and sometimes it needs to be the other way round.
The brilliant book The Stranger on the Bridge by Jonny Benjamin is a perfect example of this. When somebody is right there on the edge, it can be a stranger who makes all the difference. I know that everyone hates the person who comes and sits next to them on the bus and starts having a conversation when all you want to do is read, but we are a social species and surely the world would be a better place if we all connected a little bit more.
I really do believe in angels, whether they be normal people put in a certain place at just the right time, or some sort of messenger sent straight from God Himself, I really think they are out there. Perhaps we should all aim to be a little bit more like the angel on the bridge. You never know what awful set of events you might stop from happening.
There was some very sad news in the UK today as it was reported that Caroline Flack took her own life. Caroline was hugely successful but hit some hard times when there was an altercation with her boyfriend just before Christmas. She was arrested and so the press went to town with her.
The story is so sad because she was such a talented lady and it was the press and trolls on social media that have evidently pushed her. It’s just really opened my eyes to the fact that no matter where you are in your life, you are still open to the same pain as anyone else.
While I was drinking I genuinely thought that my pain was greater than anyone else’s and when I got rich or famous that pain would just go away. Now that I’m a little more aware of what is going on around me I can see that this couldn’t be further from the truth.
It was only the other day that I looked at the cover of one of these magazines and saw a picture of Caroline. My heart actually broke for her because I realised that her pain was greater than mine at the moment. That was quite a moment, and so I’m crushed to see how it has all ended.
It goes without saying that if you are struggling, talk to someone! Try and stay off social media because it drains the life out of humans. I hope that Caroline stays in our thoughts for a long time so that we don’t move onto the next girl (or guy) in a matter of weeks. Things need to change, and sharpish!
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