i kinda want to have a go at married at first sight

woman wearing white wedding dress holding flower bouquet standing on green field
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He stands there at the altar, back turned,

I don’t know his name, or who his mother is,

What his friends will think?

I couldn’t even take the Tinder leap

So what I’m doing here?

And hitching up my bridal skirts

I push those fearful thoughts way down

And let those words I need to form

Take their shape upon my tongue:

I do….

My dad and I love watching Married At First Sight Australia. It’s the trashiest TV you can find but it also opens a window into the world of somebody else’s marriage. ; something you don’t get to see all that often.

If you haven’t seen it before, they basically get a group of people who have never met and they get paired with somebody that the experts deem to be their perfect match. They are married and the wedding is the first time that they get to meet each other.

Understandably, there are some couples that fail miserably and these are the fun ones to watch. They offer the entertainment value and something for us to all laugh at.

But it does make me think about what makes a perfect match and you get to see how some people just sabotage relationship after relationship and they don’t seem to have any notion that they are to blame. I hope that getting sober has helped me to see my part in things that have gone wrong in the past, but I do wonder whether I would still fall into my old behaviours. Would there be anybody out there who could put up with me?

It has also interested me to think how I would fare on the show and whether I could stomach getting married to somebody I don’t know. To me, it feels like a real leap of faith and I don’t know if I would ever be brave enough.

I have even gone as far as looking at the application form….just wondering if I could do…..if I could be one of those lucky ones that it works out for.

Much Love

Rachel xx

the day the world went a little bit mental

It seemed like such a normal day

When my eyes adjusted to the light.

I guess it seemed quite normal for a while.

I got dressed and brushed my teeth,

I went my normal way to work.

People spoke in a tongue I understood

And gravity was working in the way it should.

So why were people acting weird

And sending cards and flowers

And pretty chocolate boxes

To the people they seem to hate so much

On every other day?

Valentines Day drives me crazy. I think a lot of it is down to the fact that I am jealous because I’m single and have been forever. But we’ll put that to one side for a moment and look at the bizarre way that some people behave on this day.

I know of a lot of couples who argue like cats and dogs ALL OF THE TIME and yet on this day they are all over Facebook proclaiming their undying love for one another through the medium of soppy posts and pictures. And then there is also the amount of money that they spend on each other when they buy all the gifts and meals out and all the other crap that can go with this day.

It. Is. Crazy.

Yes, I am bitter and jealous, but I sometimes think that the world is a little bit bonkers on February 14th. If you are also feeling bit lonely and sad and pulling your hair out over all of those terrible posts you’re seeing, then I’m with you. And on that note, I’m off out to buy an M&S Love Sausage and cry into a bottle of non-alcoholic wine.

Peace Out

Rachel xx