You try and yet

You’re pinned against the wall,

Ribs are crushed and lungs are punctured

And all you can think of

Is the great injustice,

A pain that every human feels

At one time or another.

Ugh, I hate the fact that you can’t please everyone. I’m a people pleaser and it crushes me that I can’t satisfy everyone. And the more you push yourself to do greater things in life, the more push back you get from all directions.

I suppose that it’s basic science, really. Every action has an equal reaction, or something like that (apologies Einstein for butchering your theory there). So, it makes sense that every decision will have some reaction, and 50% of those reactions are likely to be negative.

I’m an introvert so it takes a huge amount of effort to put myself out there, and so I want to know that the world is safe when I go out there – and it’s not.

And that means that I sometimes resent going out and being a functioning human. It’s frustrating to feel as though you are stuck between a rock and a hard place – please one person and you’re letting down another.

This is an age old problem and every human in history will have felt it at some point – but God, I really want to moan about it sometimes. And sometimes I just want to scream extremely loudly. But you’re not allowed to do that so I just smile through gritted teeth.

Much Love

Rachel xx